Fantasia Says Her Overdose was ‘No Accident’

In Fantasia’s Behind the Music episode, debuting on VH1 August 24 at 9 pm, she explains that her overdose was no accident:

Via People

“I didn’t have any fight in me. I didn’t care about anything. I just wanted out, ” the American Idol winner, 26, tells VH1 in a new Behind the Music interview, airing 9 p.m. ET/PT Tuesday, the same day her new album, Back to Me, is released. “At that moment, I wanted out. I wanted it to be over with – all of it, all of that [expletive].”

She continues: “I just sat in the closet and looked at the mirror and took all the pills in the bottle. I wanted to go to sleep and just be at peace. I knew exactly what I was doing. You can’t accidentally take a whole bottle of pills.”

Her manager, Brian Dickens found her lying in the floor in her closet after a series of tweets from Fantasia left him suspicious.

Why’d she do it? “I was tired of people doing me wrong, constantly, over and over again, dealing with my family – my father, dealing with men and their [expletive] – I was tired, ” Fantasia  says. “My head was hurting me. I was over it.”

“I remember waking up in the hospital [and thinking], ‘It didn’t work, I’m still here in this hellhole. Still here with all this drama going on.’ ”

Fantasia says her nurse was her saving grace, “My nurse Melanie was a blessing into my life because she didn’t tell me what I wanted to hear, ” she says. “She told me what I needed to hear. And she looked at me and said, ‘You gotta get up, and you’ve gotta get out of here, ’cause you haven’t fulfilled your destiny.’ ”

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Still sounds like a cry for help, rather than a real suicide attempt to me. Also, if Fantasia really wanted to kill herself, she should have been sent directly to a mental health facility for treatment. Instead, she was out filiming her reality show for VH1 with her married ex-lover within a few days. I sure hope Fantaisa is getting the help that she needs.

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