From the X Factor set, judge and pop star, Demi Lovato opened up to Access Hollywood about her drug and alcohol abuse. This is really dark stuff. Via Access Hollywood.
“Something I’ve never talked about before, but with my drug use I could hide it to where I would sneak drugs. I couldn’t go without 30 minutes to an hour without cocaine and I would bring it on airplanes,” she revealed. “I would smuggle it basically and just wait until everyone in first class would go to sleep and I would do it right there. I’d sneak to the bathroom and I’d do it. That’s how difficult it got and that was even with somebody [with me], I had a sober companion, somebody who was watching me 24/7 and living with me [and] I was able to hide it from them as well.”
She hit her bottom at the end of a Sprite bottle:
“I was going to the airport and I had a Sprite bottle just filled with vodka and it was just nine in the morning and I was throwing up in the car and this was just to get on a plane to go back to LA to the sober living house that I was staying at…I had all the help in the world, but I didn’t want it,” she said looking back. “When I hit that moment I was like, it’s no longer fun when you’re doing it alone. I’ve really never talked about this stuff before… I don’t know if I should be sharing this.
“I think at 19 years old, I had a moment where I was like, ‘Oh my God… that is alcoholic behavior. [It’s] no longer, I’m young and rebellious and out having fun, it was, wow, I’m one of those people…I gotta get my s*** together,’” she explained.
She shares about her eating disorder, that began before her teen years
“It was always there, but then I just acted on it at around 8 or 9 years old. I started overeating, compulsively overeating. I would bake cookies and then eat the whole pan. I went from doing that to being unhappy with my body. I went to just completely starving myself and that turned into throwing up and starving myself and it was just this crazy battle going on inside of me,” she said looking back. “It got really difficult [and] I would throw up and it would just be blood and it was something that I realized if I don’t stop this, I am going to die.”
Her mom, Dianna, was on set and admits she didn’t want to believe her daughter had problems, and was in denial for a long time. “I didn’t know. I didn’t actually see her, so when she said, ‘Oh no, There’s nothing going on. I’m not using, I’m not drinking, I wasn’t doing any of these things,’ Why was I not to believe her?” said Dianna, who had to face her own issues, including an eating disorder and depression, before she could help her daughter.
On a happier note, here’s Demi’s interview with the always hilarious Craig Ferguson. I never noticed that Demi has the cutest laugh!
On getting clean and sober Demi says, “I’ve done the whole partying thing, I’ve done the whole rehab thing. … I’ve always been a really motivated, driven fighter so it’s kind of like when I first got sober, I was like, ‘I’m going to show all of you, you think I can’t get sober? Watch me.'”
“I’ve stuck to it because it’s made my life so much better.There’s a lot of young people that look up to me and there needs to be someone that stands up and says it’s not about molly and partying and all that stuff.” Ha. A teeny shot at Miley? Hm.
Watch below.
